1 When I am at work my little personalities feel caught. I fight like crazy to get everything and everyone under control.
2 One day Ria writes Elara: "But Elara, I often just feel so bad. I still don’t know why I’m alive and most of the time I just feel desperate and alone."
3 Sometimes I am just sitting on the beach and falling deep into the feelings of not wanting anything. I watch the world around me. Sometimes I feel as if I were a wave, or the sand, or one single bleb of the spume.
4 All my personalities know that Elara is not at the workshop in San Feliu. But still nobody can stop looking around. Just like children do when they are searching for mum or for the one human they love so much.
5 I am a baby held by José. There is nothing more beautiful than being allowed to go for that sucking need and being met in that deep yearning of myself.
6 My second session it is about anger. It is Ria’s session and I try to express all the anger in the world. All the anger at the people who crossed my limits and abused and hurt me.
7 "I do not matter". After the anger, there is just this endless, deeply painful crying left.